HAVING FIST FIGHTS WITH THE WORLD
Greetings in the name of Jesus:
Like almost everything else in my life this recovery has complications. For some reason my personal journey has been laced with having to fight just for the normal things it feels that others enjoy without effort...mine, on the other hand has been a battle largely unseen by the public.
My music has been attacked by a brain tumor that took all my hearing and balance from my right ear in 1987 and has caused me to be unable to compete professionally...my Art and broadcast ability threatened by a triple bi-pass heart surgery in 2000. Each one of this things have been used by the enemy of God to try to wipe out the ministry that God has purposed my life with, and with each of these difficult situations God has continued to bless my stubbornness with grace and mercy to continue His work.
God has always replaced that which has been taken from me by this world with a new strength and faith that i don't think i could ever had otherwise. This latest surgery was done because the bone structure around my joint in mt left shoulder was no longer able to function...the complications i have from this surgery was unforeseen by the doctors, and the jury is out on whether i will need another surgery on my hand, and arm to correct this problem. i have battled great depressions over this, but i also realize that none of what i feel or have suffered is what this is all about...what this is all about is my personal commitment to do what I have said i would do in my faith and ministry to God.
In the long run we are all faced with that same question...what do with that commitment to God we claim to have? I some times think about what what Jesus said about the race we run,,,that the victory will always go to he who finishes the course; and so we cannot understand the concept of running a race without winning in a competition with someone else. In its purest form what we do is to compete with the man we are of this world. The idea of dying to self, and of being a living sacrifice for God on a daily basis does not have anything to do with a challenge to the world around us,,,but a challenge to who we really are created to be. So much of the time the fight we have with this world turns into more of a shadow boxing match where no real blows are ever taken or are given because we do not recognize the real opponent. That makes everything we try to accomplish so much harder for us. The normal rules of competition do not apply...out thinking or maneuvering our opponent is out of the question because we already know all of our own moves. The only way to have victory is through self will...it is the strongest force that God has given us in this life. That theme is still with us today " WHAT THIS DAY WILL YOU CHOOSE TO BELIEVE?" the battle rages on within us every day...may you richly bless God through your life in Him.
THE UNWORTHY SERVANT
Like almost everything else in my life this recovery has complications. For some reason my personal journey has been laced with having to fight just for the normal things it feels that others enjoy without effort...mine, on the other hand has been a battle largely unseen by the public.
My music has been attacked by a brain tumor that took all my hearing and balance from my right ear in 1987 and has caused me to be unable to compete professionally...my Art and broadcast ability threatened by a triple bi-pass heart surgery in 2000. Each one of this things have been used by the enemy of God to try to wipe out the ministry that God has purposed my life with, and with each of these difficult situations God has continued to bless my stubbornness with grace and mercy to continue His work.
God has always replaced that which has been taken from me by this world with a new strength and faith that i don't think i could ever had otherwise. This latest surgery was done because the bone structure around my joint in mt left shoulder was no longer able to function...the complications i have from this surgery was unforeseen by the doctors, and the jury is out on whether i will need another surgery on my hand, and arm to correct this problem. i have battled great depressions over this, but i also realize that none of what i feel or have suffered is what this is all about...what this is all about is my personal commitment to do what I have said i would do in my faith and ministry to God.
In the long run we are all faced with that same question...what do with that commitment to God we claim to have? I some times think about what what Jesus said about the race we run,,,that the victory will always go to he who finishes the course; and so we cannot understand the concept of running a race without winning in a competition with someone else. In its purest form what we do is to compete with the man we are of this world. The idea of dying to self, and of being a living sacrifice for God on a daily basis does not have anything to do with a challenge to the world around us,,,but a challenge to who we really are created to be. So much of the time the fight we have with this world turns into more of a shadow boxing match where no real blows are ever taken or are given because we do not recognize the real opponent. That makes everything we try to accomplish so much harder for us. The normal rules of competition do not apply...out thinking or maneuvering our opponent is out of the question because we already know all of our own moves. The only way to have victory is through self will...it is the strongest force that God has given us in this life. That theme is still with us today " WHAT THIS DAY WILL YOU CHOOSE TO BELIEVE?" the battle rages on within us every day...may you richly bless God through your life in Him.
THE UNWORTHY SERVANT
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