The escape of my soul
Greetings to you in the name of Jesus:
In the stillest part of the night my soul was trying to escape from my body as an attempt to free itself from the bondage it is felt in this world. I'm not overly sick or depressed and I'm not under the psychological rule or someone who has a death wish so this was an experience not like any other I have ever had.
My soul and body has been created to be one in this life and it has struggled to stay together because of the temporary and the internal parts of who I am. There is a strong desire within me to just go home, and this world is no longer that place for me. It is not in progress or failure of the world that I see this, but life that I long for cannot be found here. The thing that I look for is the kind of life that only can come from complete happiness that only freedom brings. Like most of you I too have struggled throughout my existence with the intent of grabbing all of the parts of happiness this world could offer me. As a man I have known both great pleasures and great despair. Much of the trouble that I've had in life has been self-inflicted. I have been both hot and cold with God throughout my lifetime, but never lukewarm because I have known all along that God exist it's just that I wanted to control who I was and I thought I could find if I ignored God.
I realize that my soul was not trying to escape me, but this world. It was escaping all that this world stood for in the vanity and the sin it was created around it. It realize that more than my body the battles in my life were fought over my soul and not my physical person, and I almost let go for a while. How strange it is to feel yourself relinquish control over your life if only for just a moment, but in that moment I also came to another determination. My soul was telling me something about my quest for happiness. You see my soul has always known God, it was created to know God, and some where within that creation I believe all of our souls know what life really was all about.
That realization has caused me to seek another goal while I am here, and that is to begin to lay out the treasures I want for my eternal retirement now just like I am doing for my physical retirement in this life, that is done by giving more of me a way to God and my fellow man. My soul taught me that night the value of life, and the importance of real happiness. I also realize that every day I live I breathe in and out the breath of life from God, and his breath is his spirit. We cannot escape who it is we were created to be, and our first duty is to be his child. We also have a duty to grow, and bear fruit of his spirit from within us. As we grow in Christ we will also begin to understand what our soul is longing for. We should be able to begin to look forward to the coming of Christ instead of being fearful.
There are many of us that have mixed emotions about Jesus coming the second time. I believe it is because we all are continuing to try to control what it is our life means both to us and to God. We continue to create noise around us so that we can snuff out that still small voice within us that calls us to let go, and let God do his work through us. There are many of us today who are caught in the web of this life that tells us cannot let go of the physical world around us. We white knuckle our existence in this world by clinging to the promises offered to us by the society that we live in. We don't realize that most of those promises are merely shadows and reflections, but which have no substance in a spiritual eternity. Let's cling to God together storing up a real and permanent life. May you richly bless God through your life in him.
YHE UNWORTHY SERVANT
In the stillest part of the night my soul was trying to escape from my body as an attempt to free itself from the bondage it is felt in this world. I'm not overly sick or depressed and I'm not under the psychological rule or someone who has a death wish so this was an experience not like any other I have ever had.
My soul and body has been created to be one in this life and it has struggled to stay together because of the temporary and the internal parts of who I am. There is a strong desire within me to just go home, and this world is no longer that place for me. It is not in progress or failure of the world that I see this, but life that I long for cannot be found here. The thing that I look for is the kind of life that only can come from complete happiness that only freedom brings. Like most of you I too have struggled throughout my existence with the intent of grabbing all of the parts of happiness this world could offer me. As a man I have known both great pleasures and great despair. Much of the trouble that I've had in life has been self-inflicted. I have been both hot and cold with God throughout my lifetime, but never lukewarm because I have known all along that God exist it's just that I wanted to control who I was and I thought I could find if I ignored God.
I realize that my soul was not trying to escape me, but this world. It was escaping all that this world stood for in the vanity and the sin it was created around it. It realize that more than my body the battles in my life were fought over my soul and not my physical person, and I almost let go for a while. How strange it is to feel yourself relinquish control over your life if only for just a moment, but in that moment I also came to another determination. My soul was telling me something about my quest for happiness. You see my soul has always known God, it was created to know God, and some where within that creation I believe all of our souls know what life really was all about.
That realization has caused me to seek another goal while I am here, and that is to begin to lay out the treasures I want for my eternal retirement now just like I am doing for my physical retirement in this life, that is done by giving more of me a way to God and my fellow man. My soul taught me that night the value of life, and the importance of real happiness. I also realize that every day I live I breathe in and out the breath of life from God, and his breath is his spirit. We cannot escape who it is we were created to be, and our first duty is to be his child. We also have a duty to grow, and bear fruit of his spirit from within us. As we grow in Christ we will also begin to understand what our soul is longing for. We should be able to begin to look forward to the coming of Christ instead of being fearful.
There are many of us that have mixed emotions about Jesus coming the second time. I believe it is because we all are continuing to try to control what it is our life means both to us and to God. We continue to create noise around us so that we can snuff out that still small voice within us that calls us to let go, and let God do his work through us. There are many of us today who are caught in the web of this life that tells us cannot let go of the physical world around us. We white knuckle our existence in this world by clinging to the promises offered to us by the society that we live in. We don't realize that most of those promises are merely shadows and reflections, but which have no substance in a spiritual eternity. Let's cling to God together storing up a real and permanent life. May you richly bless God through your life in him.
YHE UNWORTHY SERVANT
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